Sunday, August 21, 2011

Decisions, Decisions

I've let myself go.  Ok, it feels better to say it.  Where did the woman go 15 lbs ago in such a short period of time.  Ok, laugh.  My friend did Boot Camp and looks like a million bucks!!  I'm jealous and a little ashamed.  That was me a mere 5 years ago.  Now, I work long hours and can come up with many excuses.  Who wants to sew for the "new" person I've become?  Sigh.

So, not to wallow in pity.  What in the world am I going to do to kick start myself back into what I can be? Do I commit to running nightly again?  Yep, I now run a whole mile and that's it if I get to it at all.  Eating- yeah, when I do it's dinner and then some coffee throughout the day.  I could eat better too.  See, I've fallen apart.

Well, to address other things I've been doing- dropping the Burda magazine.  I once loved it and couldn't wait for the new issues.  Now, I don't even look at them when they arrive.  The pattern sheets are frustrating and the styles are far from spectacular.  La Mia Boutique is better but I haven't traced a pattern yet.

Knitting:  I'm almost done with my first lace project.  It has been a very bumpy road.  It was frogged 10 times and is being finished with errors.  It has to be finished this time or it will never be done.  On to simpler projects.  I must admit, it wasn't hard but why did I have trouble?  On to another project of written instructions and predictable fitting/knitting.

Now, what to sew?  I love dresses but work in an environment where it is nearly impossible to wear them.  We, as dentists, must sit in a somewhat stance resembling the splits.  Yes, a long skirt is fine but try working in one and not dragging the ground when you sit.  I really don't want my skirt to drag on the floor in a dental operatory- yuck.  Slacks are fine but look at paragraph 1 and get back to me.

Yes, I could sew tops and am in desperate need of them to wear with the tight slacks I own.  How fast can I get back into shape safely?  It's depressing- frustrating, especially since my sinuses are constantly clogged and getting my breath is difficult.  Oh to be so negative- believe me, I see the glass half full the majority of the time.

Where to go from here?


  1. Oh I'm sorry you feel this way. It's so easy to let things slide and forgive ourselves when little things add up. :/

    I just wanted to reply and say I've been there, I know how hard it is to turn things around, and you really do sound like you're in the right place now to make some life changes and get in shape.

    Two links that helped me: - a free healthy lifestyle social network that I lost 65+ pounds with in 2006 (and I've kept about 50+ of those off for good) - a running social network site. This and the Runmeter app on my iPhone have changed the way I run.

    Having people see your intake and exercise really does hold you accountable!

    And while you're losing weight, knits and princess seams are your friends. :) Good luck!

  2. You are beautiful just the way you are! That said, I understand where you are coming from...I went through that a couple of years ago and was so much more comfortable with myself (and clothes were so much more fun!) after I lost 20 lbs. I completely agree with Melissa - is great! Once you start writing down what you are eating...and have a comparison to what you should be makes things much easier!

    Make time for yourself! :-)